My witness

About me!


On a personal note I find it necessary to let you know at this point I was an alcoholic, drug taking, devil believing discard of life. Who challenged God, that if he was real He was going to have to prove it to me. And God truly opened my heart and we began a journey.

For many years I attended church faithfully using the sermon and pastors prayers as my spiritual food for the week. I was going to church every Sunday morning and Wednesday night faithfully building my religious dialog. Contently I allowed religion to happen to me and not within me; satisfied completely with the twice weekly praise and pastors doctrinal sermons. Oh yes, I was so to say “saved” I had confessed my sins to Jesus and welcomed Him into my heart; believing in my heart and confessing with my mouth. Carefully I corrected my speech to reflect my Christendom conversion. Yet I was going about my day to day life in the everyday business with the same approach I had used my entire life; with the exception that church offered a whole new relationship base.

A personal tragedy brought me to question God in my quest to find out from God why these events happen and what good could come from it. I now know that the event had nothing to do with the outcome. However by God’s grace, God used the event to bring me to question my relationship with Him. God was standing with open arms for me to give Him my whole heart and my whole life. To this point I had only been picking and choosing what I would turn over to Him. The truth came to me as I realized God’s desire was to be intimately close and He wanted to receive everything in my heart, mind and soul not just what I chose to give to Him.

In God’s perfect time I discovered the true translation of “Saved” was complete or whole; bringing to me the knowledge while I was safely covered with His love (delivered from sin and death) and in the safety of His embrace I was also on a journey to be spiritually complete or whole. And a true knowledge of the passage from Philippians became a reality in my heart:

NAB Philippians 2:12 “So then, my beloved, obedient as you have always been, not only when I am present but all the more now when I am absent, work out your salvation with fear and trembling.” So I have to state clearly hear: That I believe our Salvation to be an ongoing process, I am sealed for redemption by the Holy Spirit and seek earnestly all truths in the face of my Lord Jesus Christ; that step by step I progress from the state of sinner to the likeness and image of our Lord Jesus Christ; that I be in Him as he is also in the Creator our Father God; a process of growth involving Spirit, Body and Soul. The more I learn the more I am acutely aware of how little we really do know.

With these revelations in my heart I transform my religion to an intimately personal relationship with Jesus and my true journey in Christ began. God’s love is intimate he desires us to turn over our whole heart especially as the days of true peril arrive; that we are safe and secure.

One of the first and foremost things set in my spirit mind

(NKJ 1 John 4:10 In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. 11 Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.)

was to know God’s great love for me as best I could in the flesh; that I might know how to love and express that love back to God through Jesus Christ, for our first commandment is to love God…God may have brought us to knowledge of Him in thousands of differing ways, however, once we acknowledge God there is a set pattern in the Bible and made abundantly clear that the first order of God is to love Him…God first loved us in creation once we acknowledge God we now have the ability to fall in love with Him and give that love priority in our lives and everything we do. I sometimes think we lose sight of the importance of Just plain loving God in reverence and awe as well as expressing that love to Him not only in our faith toward Jesus but remembering:

RSV Matthew 22:36 "Teacher, which is the great commandment in the law?" 37 And he said to him, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind. 38 This is the great and first commandment. 39 And a second is like it, you shall love your neighbor as yourself. 40 On these two commandments depend all the law and the prophets."

First I have to admit I wanted to believe God was my creator in my heart; living so worldly for so many years I admit there was little strands of doubt in my heart from the years of believing the world’s knowledge on the subject. We serve a miracle working God for in my heart a vision of Genesis became a reality in my heart. For even before the words of creation formed on His lips

He knew me, He named me, He loved me, He placed in my heart and His heart hope for me that I might find Him and know Him intimately fulfilling my destiny in Him through His Son.

Even as he separated the light from the darkness and all that was to be for His creations laws of nature and time where forming God chose to be souvenir set apart for the age to come that we might come to know fully the extent of His love and communion with those who chose to seek His Sons likeness in heart and mind. No greater love is there than our God’s.

He created us with the ability to create that we might come to understand how powerful the love within creation is; reflect those feelings and know he feels the same about you. If you have no children can you remember that first project or event where you created something with the work of your hands, the love for it, the pride and accomplishment you felt within…that is same pride and accomplishment he feels when he looks upon your heart and into the hearts of those that seek Him; There is no greater love my friend.

RSV Isaiah 49:5 And now the LORD says, who formed me from the womb to be his servant, to bring Jacob back to him, and that Israel might be gathered to him, for I am honored in the eyes of the LORD, and my God has become my strength –

RSV Isaiah 44:2 Thus says the LORD who made you, who formed you from the womb and will help you: Fear not, O Jacob my servant, Jeshurun whom I have chosen. (Jeshurun "the righteous people": Israel's ideal character with His high calling (Deut. 32:15; 33:5,26; Isa. 44:2).

Once this was sealed in my heart and I from my deepest point of reasoning believed with my whole heart that God was indeed my Creator God; and He would do all He has said He would do, transformation after transformation became reality in my life. These truths began manifesting as I developed an inner man truth as I became totally aware of my own lack of any truly love filled perception as in Paul’s prayer for us in:

Ephesians 3:14

14 For this reason I bow my knees before the Father,

15 from whom every family in heaven and on earth is named,


16 that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with might through his Spirit in the inner man,


17 and that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love,


18 may have power to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth,


19 and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

20 Now to him who by the power at work within us is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think,

21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.




With this prayer in my heart I knew I had sever lack of love in my heart; I was void of any true love, realizing that only through Christ can true love be cast I took this warning to a deep place in my heart:

RSV Ephesians 4:30 And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, in whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. 31 Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, with all malice, 32 and be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.

Adding to this, the clear statement in John that if we do not love our brother we do not love God. “NKJ 1 John 4:19 We love Him because He first loved us. 20 If someone says, "I love God," and hates his brother, he is a liar; for he who does not love his brother whom he has seen, how can he love God whom he has not seen? 21 And this commandment we have from Him: that he who loves God must love his brother also.

Through these scriptures I came to the realization that to love God meant loving all men. At this point all my opinions and feelings toward others came to a new presence within me. I had taken the bulk of my trespasses and made them of no effect making all forms of excuses to myself and God.; When God placed in my heart “that when I forgave others in my heart I would bring that person or opinion directly to God; creating in that action a true prayer from a heart of truth for their spiritual well being and that act would in no way be left unnoticed.

Now this friend is a tremendous undertaking!

So I have elaborated!

Being an opinionated, person with likes and dislikes towards others with grand judgments of most people and things SET IN MY MIND knowing full well I was right. I found my self falling far short of John 4 and prayed for God to show me how to love even as Jesus. God quickly made me aware of all the bitterness, unforgiving, and judgment that resided in my heart and that my heart was full hardness. Rocks and boulders the size of the Rockies in some areas not a productive heart for one who professed to be a christian.

Turning over my UN-forgiveness and personal opinions of others to the Lord was not easy, I found out quickly that I could not do it; but I prayed to the Lord “the desire of my heart is to give all these things over to you Lord and anyone who has or will bring offense against me, teach me to forgive Sweet Jesus, that I might be pleasing before your eyes”.

I remember my journey to forgiveness; dealing with offense and depending on my own personal opinion of others like it was yesterday, I was walking around praising God feeling holy while living my everyday life with everyday emotions still very worldly, but something was changing; something inside had changed a barely noticeable change at first then I began to take notice. Every time I would pray the Lord’s prayer (which I believe is vital for us to do daily) when I got to that word “”as”” we forgive those who trespass against us….I would get stuck right there! Like I had no knowledge of the next line…This really started to work on my mind, I had a lot to be forgiven for – but, I knew through my confession Jesus had forgiven me and washed them all away. Why then every time I prayed would I get stuck right there and why every time I prayed was I always thinking about:

Who had hurt me…

Who had betrayed me…

Who had angered me…

Who had done unspeakables to me…

Who had never loved me….

Who had abandoned me…

Who had shamed me…

Who had lied about me…

Who had disappointed me...

And that is a list that could go on forever, for anyone. However in the beginning my mind would focus on that one person that I knew I could not forgive…. Every time I prayed, I thought of them. And I literally argued with God~~~ “God I cannot forgive them”~~~~ they hurt me beyond repair, then I would be able to put it away for a time, then it would start over. Only there was a difference…I began to pray Lord I do not know how to forgive them, please teach me your ways Lord that I might be forgiving….

And God took me on a journey I will never forget for the next several years even to today …As he teaches me, that every UN-forgiveness is like a piece of stone in my heart, hardening it, and that he loved me, and he writes on the softened flesh of a heart and that soften flesh was found in the heart of those who forgive. And there was a few on my list that literally took years to forgive, especially when dealing with family members and opinions I had drawn over the years. God showed me that my opinion about a person could prove lethal in the forgiveness encounter. I think our personal opinions are some of the hardest trials of the heart to submit. However my witness to this is the rewards are spectacular.

The new cleansed outlook can be refreshing and it gives you the opportunity to look on people without reproach, fear or anticipation of either. I spoke to you of rewards; your inward reward is an intimacy with Christ which grows in each act of forgiveness, every submission and renewal of opinion; with a stead fast faith you are covered and protected to love your neighbor, which is re-assurance in the age of multiplied evil. My outward reward was truly far fetching as the act of communion became a true joining with the Lord that goes beyond anything I can relate in mere words. Several of my outward sins remain even to this day; however with time I have faith they will fall away to the degree my Lord Jesus Christ has planned in my destiny remembering.

1 John 1:8 If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.

9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.

From this I gather sin is part of the worldly existence less God be a liar; which is perplexing as I seek my Jesus’ face, knowing He paid the full price for my sins yet in some sins I still dwell. Lord Jesus have mercy on us all. So I stand firmly on the promises of God as written in:

1 John 1:7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin.

Today and every day the flesh of my heart still finds a few offenses for the day and stony patches, I turn that offense over to God; sometimes it is within my heart to just forgive other times I look to Jesus with this prayer “Jesus, I cannot find it in my heart to forgive this person, please show me your mercy and guide me to forgive ______ and those I find unforgivable.” And in time I found myself re-evaluating, finding out something I never knew about the situation, my sensitivity or my feelings seemed to change. Until I could bring that person or situation to the Lord with real love and concern in my heart for that person and their spiritual well being. Jesus working is what I have always called it! And with every new day and every old or new act of forgiveness came spiritual growth that was above and beyond measure.

Is forgiveness an important part of the Christian walk….It has been for me! It is the event that draws me close to God. If you do not know what your spiritual state is, look in your heart, and see how many pebbles, rocks or boulders are blocking your next spiritual growth experience. You see God’s Forgiveness towards me was instant but my forgiveness of others was a journey toward knowing my God intimately. You will be amazed at how situations just change or defuse when you pass them on to Jesus. Of course you have to leave them with Jesus and not pick them back up…but, that is a whole new writing. Was it a smooth journey? No! Am I still on it, Yes!

It took time; however, God did guide me on how to overcome offense; with this revelation I have found I need to renew my mind in Christ daily and confess and know deep in my heart that He is God and He will do what he says He will do. I found a need to stay saturated in His truths. Each time I reached forgiveness in my heart to a person or circumstance and gave thanksgiving for them in my life to Jesus, the Holy Spirit brought me a little glimpse of Glory that cannot be described with mere words.

(If interested in the ‘glimpse’ see my blog writing “to kiss the Son”). Interestingly this term “desire to kiss the Son” is mentioned several times in older Bibles; and translated out of the newer versions with the exception of Psalms 2. Being a person of the generation of books such as “1984” and “Fahrenheit 352” where there would be mass book burnings in the latter days. I now believe there is no need for book burnings for the truth or meat of books are edited and translated to a point where the meat or truth of the book is omitted. A more environmental friendly approach to removing the truth let’s say.

Along with forgiveness I found a real spiritual need to stop judging others.

I experienced an extremely self righteous state in my first years. I passed judgment on everyone who did not believe exactly and to the letter as I believed. I learned the hard way (judge not less ye be judged by the same measure) that to pass judgment on a brother or sister in Christ is throwing the concept of “love thy neighbor as thy self” right out the window. I found there was a very thin line between discernment and judgment; one easily crossed over with our current day denominational differences. 1 & 2 John are clear on who the enemy is….so even though others may not practice as I do they are still a part of the kingdom of God…A body has many parts with very differing responsibilities to the whole. But to confess Jesus as the living only begotten son of God is only possible to those of God. There will be many who cannot and will not make this confession in the latter days and these are the anti Christ according to John.

My tendency to judge others was a huge mountain for me to remove, and I must admit I still revisit that mountain from time to time when I walk in the flesh to long. I in my vigorous search for that perfect church I had set in my heart and mind that anytime I heard judgment of others in Christ or politics coming from the altar I would just get up and leave right in the middle of whatever and I must admit still do on occasion. The Lord gave me two scriptures that weighed heavily on my heart:

NKJ John 9:39 And Jesus said, "For judgment I have come into this world, that those who do not see may see, and that those who see may be made blind."

This demonstrates clearly to my heart that he is our judge.

NKJ 1 Timothy 5:24 Some men's sins are clearly evident, preceding them to judgment, but those of some men follow later. 25 Likewise, the good works of some are clearly evident, and those that are otherwise cannot be hidden.

I gathered from these passages that though we may be able to judge the worldly God reserved the right to judge those who call on His Name Jesus.

When I came to this knowledge that I cannot see the heart of man, nor the inner thoughts of any man, nor do I know who has called on Jesus name from a believing heart; how can I then pass judgment.

Do not misunderstand me I am able to address faults of those who openly are not in line with the commandments for the good of the gospel. Remembering always the great commandments are to love my God with my whole heart mind and soul and my brother as myself. Personally I found passing judgment was as I stated earlier “I learned the hard way (judge not less ye be judged by the same measure) that to pass judgment on a brother or sister in Christ is throwing the concept of “love thy neighbor as thy self” right out the window.”

NKJ Romans 10:9 that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. 11 For the Scripture says, "Whoever believes on Him will not be put to shame." 12 For there is no distinction between Jew and Greek, for the same Lord over all is rich to all who call upon Him. 13 For "whoever calls on the name of the LORD shall be saved."

Since it is in the nature of man to form opinions and pass judgment I pray earnestly that I approach other concepts and test them from the grace of God in the Word of God; as I ask you to do also in this writing. Remembering always we have not the ability to see others heart nor know if they have called on the name of the Lord, for even at this moment God may be drawing them onto his Son, Jesus from the darkness of this world.

KJV 1 John 4:1 Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world. 2 Hereby know ye the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesseth that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is of God: 3 And every spirit that confesseth not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is not of God: and this is that spirit of antichrist, whereof ye have heard that it should come; and even now already is it in the world. 4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.

I guess to sum up my witness to this point: I believe we need to get a good grip on just who God is! To know that you know, he is your Creator lover of our soul with no doubts what so ever, no big bangs wandering around in your head no doubt that you where fearfully and wonderfully created by His hand with a purpose and destiny within His Son, Jesus. Know when He looks on your heart He only sees the ability He created in you to love and extend that great love you have for Him onto all others that share this worldly experience; that we all may all be refined through and in the love of Christ.

May the God of Peace and Love abide in you, May our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ draw you to the waters of eternal life found in the many mysteries found in the cleansing blood of Jesus Christ.

As Jesus grows nearer

As the hour of our Lord grows nearer, the reality that we are spiritual becomes more forth right in our hearts and minds, the expression we are spiritual beings having a human experience takes on a new undeniable truth. The hidden hunger built in our hearts at creation to unite with our creator becomes an unrest deep in our hearts that only God can bring peace to. As the harsh reality of this end of the age time world brings clarity to the true value of faith created through God and delivered through faith in God’s Son Jesus Christ a new hunger grows in the heart of man.

Salvation is the light we seek to make a difference in this world, for threw the blood of Jesus we become mirrors of Jesus love for us, our reflection, Jesus light within to give hope to those in darkness...We are the generation blessed to shine our lights into the darkness...to light the way to those perishing all around us to the bondage of the world...Seek to kiss the Son that your light might shine.

Faith in Jesus Christ is the light onto darkness. God sent many before us to witness to the Glory of God’s goodness to His people. In the first hundred years men where living epistles to bring to others the knowledge and wisdom of God’s new covenant with those chosen to be His people. It is only threw the blood of Jesus are these truths manifested to a true knowing reality and light onto the oppressed...the blood shed of Jesus Christ our redeemer reveals the truth that not only are all things possible but probable if it is God’s will that is being sought.

In the reality of seeking God we must recognize his will. Keeping this knowledge save within the protection we are afforded through the blood of Jesus in prayer and supplication to a deeper understanding of His written word upon our hearts. For it is the words written within that will give you the necessary strength in the reign of the Anti Christ; With all that I am I truly believe that we shall once more be living epistles.

The simplicity within the Word of God must not be lost or analyzed to a point of degeneration of its purpose. For only by faith provided through a personal relationship with Jesus Christ can understanding of His word manifest its self to truth within the heart of the seeker....

Man’s ability of his self is full of logical ends, Gods plan is full of eternal solutions. Most beyond the scope of mans intelligence less God opens your heart, mind and soul to His Truths; truths you where created in.

These are truths you must seek, doors you must request be opened for if you seek these truths through the Son of God you will find the reality your inner man seeks. Confirmation of these truths will become an undeniable part of your existence. Faith in the Holy Trinity.

The Trinity a most precious, precious gift of our God. For we where separated from our Creator God by sin in the garden; and God begot His only Son that we might be free from sin to reunited with our Creator through His most precious, cleansing blood and granted through their extraordinary love; with presents and fore thought of their love most holy and precious the availability of their most Holy Spirit available to us through the precious and grace filled blood of Jesus Christ; to lead and guide us to the true reality of love in the Father and the Son with their presents within our hearts. Who will write all we need to know to reunite as companions with our creator God.

Careful in those you place over you

Know those who you place in Authority over you!

Recently I had a very unusual experience that would create fear in any heart except those well planted in faith of Jesus Christ and in the Word of God.

God has blessed us with eyes to see at times those things hidden from the eyes of the worldly; This I have found to be a mixed blessing at times. However not without purpose!

There are those within the heart of Christ that would impose their views into the flow of the Spirit of God. I have prayed earnestly about this and was reminded of the Tower of Babel.

NKJ Genesis 11:4

And they said, "Come, let us build ourselves a city, and a tower whose top is in the heavens; let us make a name for ourselves, lest we be scattered abroad over the face of the whole earth." 5 But the LORD came down to see the city and the tower which the sons of men had built. 6 And the LORD said, "Indeed the people are one and they all have one language, and this is what they begin to do; now nothing that they propose to do will be withheld from them. 7 "Come, let Us go down and there confuse their language, that they may not understand one another's speech."

“nothing that they propose to do will be withheld from them.” God is truly a gracious God for he has given us power through the spirit a power I fear sometimes we fail to realize the depth and width of.  Really think about this passage...ponder it deeply...for it is saying many things...

Back on track

People preach for all reasons as stated by Paul:

NKJ Philippians 1:15 Some indeed preach Christ even from envy and strife, and some also from good will: 16 The former preach Christ from selfish ambition, not sincerely, supposing to add affliction to my chains; 17 but the latter out of love, knowing that I am appointed for the defense of the gospel. 18 What then? Only that in every way, whether in pretense or in truth, Christ is preached; and in this I rejoice, yes, and will rejoice.

Knowing this as a truth in my heart I give attention to all who speak the Word of God with a prayer for God to guide me in what I receive or reject. My personal experience made me suspect of the intention of one who would attempt to over ride the flow of the Spirit of God in communal prayer... with their own perception that I fear is born in prejudice and judgment from some of the lessons I have learned spiritually in the steed of our acquaintance, which is the brotherhood of Jesus. At the risk of sounding totally insane this persons continence changed to a hardened fearsome mask of legal danger with their iniquities trying to show themselves. Knowing somewhat of this person I know that the pure love of God is their base, covered by the grace of our Lords precious blood and always seeking that love and the gospel they preach normally with a gentle and endearing spirit of love. Yet in this spiritual moment fear had to be overcome with love and prayer for this person...With a gentle warning not to fall under the authority of this person. Yet this person is in a vision I have had of prayer and faith standing quietly in approval. (Which leans me to wonder perhaps dual faith in denominations needs revisited)

Be careful when choosing those who you allow spiritual authority over you to be pronounced. Even with those you know to be in Christ.

I still hold fast to the faith that we who have chosen to follow Christ in the river of forgiveness’ granted at Calvary no matter what we call ourselves we are all children of the living God. How people can express that those who confess Christ are demons is beyond my scope of reason. For in my heart it is truly like the head telling the foot it is to be cut off for the body has no need of it; which is stated in scripture as a warning not to allow... For It is the living Christ only who leads and guides us in the truth within his word; Though I have many good teachers and mentors the increase comes from God alone has always been my experience. I am going to revisit John1 to update myself on this.

Do all things in prayer, stay planted if that is God’s will for you, but pray earnestly that you fall not under an authority who will stunt or hinder your growth. Spiritual Authority you will know and recognize if you stay in prayer for guidance from your true teacher and re-warder Jesus Christ by His Spirit alone will you reach the inheritance he has laid up for you.

So let us be mindful of the great power God has endowed us with, when drawing opinions, or judgments of those who confess Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior, test all things in the Sprit of Love of our great and glorious God and His Son Jesus Christ through the wisdom of their most holy Spirit. For the days will come at the end that judgments will be necessary to fulfill the Word of God, let us be careful to be in the flow of our precious Jesus and His love, not a spirit of judgment.

Scripture and prayer for the day

KJV 1 John 4:1 Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world. 2 Hereby know ye the Spirit of God: Every spirit that confesseth that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is of God: 3 And every spirit that confesseth not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh is not of God: and this is that spirit of antichrist, whereof ye have heard that it should come; and even now already is it in the world. 4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world. 5 They are of the world: therefore speak they of the world, and the world heareth them. 6 We are of God: he that knoweth God heareth us; he that is not of God heareth not us. Hereby know we the spirit of truth, and the spirit of error.

KJV 1 Corinthians 3:3 For ye are yet carnal: for whereas there is among you envying, and strife, and divisions, are ye not carnal, and walk as men? 4 For while one saith, I am of Paul; and another, I am of Apollos; are ye not carnal? 5 Who then is Paul, and who is Apollos, but ministers by whom ye believed, even as the Lord gave to every man? 6 I have planted, Apollos watered; but God gave the increase. 7 So then neither is he that planteth any thing, neither he that watereth; but God that giveth the increase. 8 Now he that planteth and he that watereth are one: and every man shall receive his own reward according to his own labour. 9 For we are labourers together with God: ye are God's husbandry, ye are God's building.

I thank you Jesus for all you give to me each day, in spirit and in the physical. For without you I would be nothing, with no hope, no love, no future. I praise and exalt your might name, your are King of kings and Lord of Lords, the Great and Might I AM.

I pray Dear Lord that you would be my all, that every thought every dream, every imagination be drawn from Thy most Holy Spirit...For you are my shelter from the storm, you are my hiding place Dear Lord...It is only you I wish to exalt, may my essences be yours dear Lord.

You are the Lord on high, give me a new song to sing onto your Glory...May I hear the words I gave to Hope Street also, and may your love shine on them as they create a song to bring many onto the Lord and exalt your mighty name. Give me direction I need to take now for my writing Lord. Fill me up Jesus, place each of my steps in a path to bring you Glory, may I walk in freedom as you would have me walk, may I understand all that comes with, calling on living waters...Work in me Dear Jesus...I submit onto Thee Dear Lord all of my sin and iniquities cleanse me in your blood, wash me in the cleansing waters of your love, let my life and Spirit reflect the you in me...to all that are to know...Go before me dear Lord and prepare the hearts of those to help me along the way that your will and glory not be delayed in your purpose for me within the inheritance thou has chosen for me Dear Lord..

My sweet, sweet Jesus Dear Lord I thank you for all the blessings you have placed in me, for I am very undeserving Father of such a great love, Keep me now Lord, let not my enemies rejoice over my trials and make folly of my love for Thee my precious precious Lord. You know my every thought Dear Lord and my every weakness, remember dear Lord that in My weakness YOU will be strong. Mold me and shape me to what you have set for my destiny within this life for you are my destiny, grant to me the destiny Thou has prepared for me, grant me the inheritance thou has chosen for me Dear Lord.

I ask these things my redeemer, my salvation, my-love, my hope My precious, precious Jesus I ask all within your name my precious Lord Jesus your will be met not mine.....Amen.

Small reflection

From an old prayer journal "This must have been a day of philosophy for me! After reading Chesterton no doubt; He reasoned that Christianity as written was most sufficient, its problem was it has never been practiced in truth."



On a hill so far away in what appeared to be despair the Son of God gave forth all he was that we might join our God!

God took his hand and raised His Son that all to be would know the great love in creation was theirs if they would but seek and believe upon the Son..

There is a seed within us planted at creation~~~to seek the source of our being; to acknowledge and know our creator the Holy One of Israel.

The ways of man are onto themselves accepting their own wisdom or trusting in the wisdom of other men to guide them on their way~~

Never searching within themselves to find the truth hidden within the great love they have access to…at Calvary it is a hard thing to search within~~

For the ability to find ones truths all lay within their own hearts~~I pray who ever reads these words~~to take time to spend just pondering his Word and getting to know Jesus Christ finding out what His word has to say. Our thoughts are fertilizer to our Souls in need of control. For as we look to the living God that seed planted in creation begins to grow~~~in open hearts and minds.

Jesus and the Word, for Jesus is the Word bringing our seed to life so tenderly He guides us~~In what we need to know and this seed is planted within each and every Soul~~

Our emotions are negativity's play ground, our opinions usually build grieve and strife~~Less they are tempered with love and understanding to know and come to oneself that there is more to life than what we can see, hear and touch; That we are indeed a part of something much bigger.

To weigh the worlds argument we are just an accident, can you look in a child’s eyes filled with hope and love and honestly believe it is by accident…Do you not know that same hope and love is what God wants to restore to you! He is waiting on you! Holding out his hand!

We are filled with emotions and opinions that we have generated from our limited capabilities to understand how we as individuals fit into any whole. Anger, pride, self sufficiency all filling our heart and minds to where the art of reasoning has taken a back seat to the fast paced things we can see, hear and touch; keeping us from pondering and reasoning out truths that may lie directly in front of us.Less we submit that there is a higher power and that power is Jesus Christ and in this submission we find His mercy, His knowledge we come to an understanding that is beyond ourselves and the understanding that we cannot reach independently.

Thanksgiving

The only way it could be!

His love so vast and eternal

His Son gave our salvation to unfold

His spirit to guide us through

Love so deep beginning to end

From all three the only way it could be!

That we might see

And seek a love so true!

Who are we that He should care!

Yet a companion He desires us to be

Everlasting love granted through the Trinity

The whole of God who is love in all through all

How blessed we are to even contemplate a love so true!

Yet by His Spirit united as one we shall be!

Praise God for His wisdom

Praise God for His love

Praise God for His Son

Seek His great wisdom

Seek His eternal love

Seek the Son

Give thanksgiving for His wisdom

Give thanksgiving for His love

Give thanksgiving for Jesus Christ

That through His great love we all shall be one!

We all make mistakes

Spiritual Growth

Here is an excerpt from a letter 

I wrote to a dear brother in the Lord.

Your words “I have made a lot of mistakes” is tumbling around in my heart maybe even, not so much the words as the feelings expressed in those words my heart identified with as something I have experienced. We all make mistakes in our spiritual walks. I found with myself I allowed spiritual excitement to carry me farther than my knowledge, wisdom and discernment of God’s word had taken me at that time...Disaster In big bold red letters.

Repercussions, yes, and it is humbling to have to deal with them, but God is gracious in His love for us. In my heart He is looking down on us as children first learning to walk, children who run and fall down for they have not yet mastered their balance. God allows us to fall down to skin our knees, bruise our egos, scratch our legs, arms and elbows sometimes so we learn to get back up dig in the word and see where we errored at. To fine tune our balance to our walk, skip, hop, jump or run. With this in mind...know it is just the Holy Spirit at Work in You! Teaching, leading and guiding you into the Word of God so you have better balance in your spirit.

Remember too that sometimes when we are working in faith that work also requires others involved to have faith also; God’s work is seldom a solo performance. The first think I learned about God was to fear Him in awe understanding that He really is God and He will do what He has said He will do....It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the living God, a God that has such an intense love for us that he is jealous. I think a lot of people miss that, just how intense, deep, and enduring God’s love for us is...True it is a love to deep for us to understand completely it is beyond our minds ability, however I also believe if we do not try to get that concept our understanding is clouded...So if you are in check, check out the faith on the other end...sad to say however there are professed Christians out there that are clueless...and lack even simple understanding of those things unseen...inexperienced....you know what I am going to Say...My all times line....”some allow religion to happen to them not in them”.....Had too......:)

All we can do to build their faith is pray for them and perhaps find a gentle way to lead them back to Calvary all of it...guide them to review from the agony in the garden to the cross, for it is sometimes hard to realize and grasp just how much our Jesus went through that we not be burdened with those trials...Have them pray for understanding of those events, for with understanding comes faith, and by faith we understand, that we have never given enough until we have given it all...( I know faith comes by hearing but for me it has come in other ways too) Then love comes... in abundance even Jesus after he gave it all came back to give more...Teach them to ponder on these things. Many have only been taught about the blood and it is most precious and what cleanses us of our sins, but he gave us much more and the mystery of those things are in His blood from his tears of blood in the garden to the cross He overcame much for us. Let us remind others to receive, ponder, and pray for understanding of all the heartache he has already covered for us....If we will just pass it on!

Preaching again aren’t I. Okay, just one more thing! Teach them to ponder...I know they have translated it out of the bible, but I honestly believe removing some things like pondering, perception, and kissing the son should have been left in there!!!!! For all three have been vital points of learning in my walk...(Sorry....Rabbit trial) you know how opinionated I can get about that....:) okay two more things:)

Remember, one instant in His will is worth 10,000 lifetimes. For just a glimpse into his Glory sears a heart to eternity. Desire His gifts and work and train and be diligent towards them, they shall come, for it has been spoken and there is life in God’s Word not one will return to Him void. Give thanksgiving always for the writing of the word on our hearts.

When the spirit manifests within you, you are no longer just a follower of Christ but now you are a vessel of Christ by his indwelling Spirit and builder toward His will on earth even as it is in heaven. He will mold you and place you where you are to be...that your manifestation work toward His will in all things that His will be met in the earth even as it is in heaven. To His Glory be the work of our hands as ministers of His Word we bring Glory to the name above all names, Jesus. Never forgetting to seek His face in all we do, trust in God and place our faith in the things unseen anticipating fully His return in Glory; our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Remember me in your prayers.

In the love of Christ,

Don't worry Pray

If your going to worry don’t Pray

If your going to Pray don’t worry!

This is one of those ole’ time sayings

that holds a lot of truth!

How many times do we give an issue, problem, healing, burden, or friend over to our Lord Jesus in prayer requesting he handle the situation and the moment we stop praying we go right back to worrying.

We seldom think of worry as a thing, an object of our thoughts, being an object it is finite. Being finite it can not be in two places at one time. So if you have the situation an are continuing to worry how can God fix it? You have not let it go!

Put your faith to work, trust God with all your heart an lean not on your own understanding. God has a way to fix anything, anything at all, he can fix it, mend it, repair it, replace it, heal it, recreate it in a way you would have never thought of or even imagined.

We have a grand habit of trying to do it ourselves. After generations of hearing “The Lord helps those who help their-selves” May I submit to you this saying “The Lord helps those who accept wisely council from him and let God’s will prevail.”

We need to but our faith into action and trust God, once this is done then: tune up our listening skills and follow where are spiritual man guides us, listening carefully to the inner man that little voice we sometimes ignore. Listen!

Solomon in his wisdom repeated many times in all the books we have of his writings “we live by what we speak”. So if we speak victory over the situation carefully praying in faith that God will handle it how can we not be victorious.

God does not want us playing tennis with our problems, give God the ball walk off the court, let Him play on your behalf. And you have a guaranteed WIN! But remember if you keep going back on the court you are apt to get hit in the head with the ball. Trust me I speak from experience on that!

Lord work in my heart

Seek within

when all is not well

As I wallow in my own self pity, undone in prosperity by my own iniquity I pray and give thanksgiving to my God for showing mercy and loving kindness toward me even in my despair.

Ezekiel’s words bring wisdom to my heart for man sets in place his own iniquity that when it comes he might fall prey to it in a continuous nature that we might wail in wonder of our own iniquity; crying onto the preciousness of the Son’s mercy why, why, refusing to look into our own hearts for fear of knowing we ourselves hold on to and set ourselves up to fall. Then, we dig a hole deeper and deeper by blaming others for our own deceptive thoughts blaming even the devil for our failure to examine our own thoughts and imaginations in the deepest folds of the heart. All the time, we keep the iniquity before our own eyes and in our plans.

Have we become so hardened in our own hearts we cannot see, nor hear the call to empty ourselves that God might fill us daily? For the events of even one day can seed our thoughts and imaginations toward many ill fated judgments, better known to some as opinions.


I pray Dear Lord, Rid me dear Lord of this curse, for you are my Lord and the desire of my heart. Guide me to know my heart and the hardness there in,  that I repent of all un-forgiveness even onto myself, that my opinions not over rule good judgments in the matters of life and love. In the name above all names Jesus, Amen.

Now is the Time

Now is the time!

Are we ready?

Pray now, pray deeply, pray earnestly for understanding! Empty yourselves give on to Jesus all those people and things you have malice toward, empty yourselves for the time for our lights to shine out is here! It is not your works and good deeds that you flatter yourselves with; nor is it the opinionated list of gifts you believe you are gifted with. Take heed in Paul’s words to Corinthian’s for you can have all these things and still fall short. Religion has made so many to rely on their façade contentment has grown in their hearts like a ravaging weed.

So many have become fearful as understanding is unveiled in the hearts of those who truly seek the face of Jesus in their hearts, minds and souls. For they are set free and transformed into lights that will and must shine into their darkness. They have placed their faith in the system of religion and not into God. For they should be rejoicing that the word is alive and going into their closets for repair from the Lord our Jesus who has given them so much, and whose desire it is to bring to them fullness of His un-comprehendible love! The love they where created to come to fullness in. This is not a cry against the church, for the daily sacrifice shall be, until... But prove yourself to be worthy of that sacrifice with lights shining and the love of God burning in your heart.Examine yoursef your motives, your love.

Trust in God not the comforts of your surroundings for anything lost will be regained at His Hand and in His Love; which will withstand the flames of indignation that are coming sooner than we think.

You who know Christ dig, and dig, then dig some more into the truth of the word, get understanding of how Jesus’ first battleground is the heart and mind find Jesus’ love and submit all they have and are to that love…for He is standing before you with open arms in hope you go deeper into yourself and find the fullness of Him.

There is no loss in Christ, he needs our lights to shine out now; that we can fight the earthly cause to draw others, that those we love are not among those whose hearts grow cold from the evil loose in the world, and not wander off in search of false Gods. For the Kingdom of God is the only true power and that power is at hand prepare yourself and those you love.

Fear not the light that shines from the heart for it is the Love of God and no other, share and rejoice that Christ is alive!

Hear my prayer Dear Lord

Dear Lord my Father and King, Redeemer and Salvation, I sing in my heart and lift your mighty name, my King of Kings and Lord of Lords I tremble at the nearness of your coming. As we stand in the "Dawn of the Day of the Lord" how my heart trembles at the wonder of Your glory, to sense the nearness of your presences on earth even as it is in heaven. Your love and Your Fathers Wrath to soon unfold in an undeniable presence, the blood of Your Martyred to soon be avenged in love and terror. I pray this day that you supply Lord all that is needed spiritually and physically to met our daily call to serve your purpose and will upon the earth even as it is in heaven.


Grant to us the wisdom and knowledge to empty completely our hearts in forgiveness to all those we have ill will towards; remove from us the nature to be opinionated and judgmental toward others; that the light of Your glory shine in our hearts, that you may use us to reap toward the fullness of the hearts that have called on Your precious, precious name, while there is still time. Fill our hearts with Your love Lord that the grace and beauty of You be reflected in us Lord Jesus. Light the eternal flame of Your love and nearness in our hearts that many see and know of Your nearness, and stand ready to serve Your eternal Love. Grant to us Your mercy and loving kindness as we pray earnestly for Your chosen people and chosen land’s to come to the fullness of Your Word; allow us to share in Your joy at the nearness of Your chosen people having eyes to see and ears to hear the wisdom and knowledge of Your Son dear God, For Your joy at their repentance shall surly engulf the universe.

Let us not be entangled in the affairs of this world take from us any temptation to fall to the strong presence of false religions and false doctrine in these days of trial ahead. Deliver us from the deceit that shall fill the earth. Renew and cleanse our hearts daily in the wisdom and knowledge available in the precious blood of our blessed Savior and Redeemer Jesus Christ that we daily lift His name in praise and thanksgiving for the precious price He paid that we might walk in freedom, joy, peace and love only possible by the Son’s grace filled love and sacrifice at Calvary.

In praise and thanksgiving we ask Dear God, lifting in joy the Son You manifested for our redemption that we might one day walk in the garden of Your love. We make these request in the name above all names, Grant to us the eyes to see the love of the Father toward the Son and the Son toward the Father, that we also enter in this love through Your love, in the light of Your love we ask in the name of Your precious, precious Son Jesus Christ….Amen!

Words

NKJ 1 Samuel 3:19 So Samuel grew, and the LORD was with him and let none of his words fall to the ground.



For so long I have wondered at the words, and not a word he ever said hit the ground…..in my own pondering of the events now unfolding in my live that reoccurrence to those words came with a Revelation that they never hit the ground because there was never a word uttered that was not in love; the deep and grounded love that is produced from the indwelling spirit of God. That even though Christ time had not yet come he was chained in the love of the Father and the Son through the Spirit. For the relativity of time in the Spirit is very much unknown to our present state of knowledge.

Life offers us continuous cause to step out of the love of God and indulge ourselves in our own perspectives, opinions, ideals we have set in place to pad our own vanity. May I always remember to serve God is to love, not in the vain attempt of man, but in the richness that the love of God has seeded within our hearts.

My journey continues

Seek within



As I wallow in my own self pity, undone in prosperity by my own iniquity I pray and give thanksgiving to my God for showing mercy and loving kindness toward me even in my despair. Ezekiel’s words bring wisdom to my heart for man sets in place his own iniquity that when it comes he might fall prey to it in a continuous nature that we might wail in wonder of our own iniquity; crying onto the preciousness of the Son’s mercy why, why, refusing to look into our own hearts for fear of knowing we ourselves hold on to and sets ourselves up to fall. Then, we dig a whole deeper and deeper by blaming others for their own deceptive thoughts blaming even the devil for our failure to examine our own thoughts and imaginations in the deepest folds of the heart. All the time, we keep the iniquity before our own eyes and in our plans.

Rid me dear Lord of this curse, for you are my Lord and the desire of my heart. Guide me to know my heart and the hardness there in, that I repent of all un-forgiveness even onto myself, that my opinions not over rule good judgments in the matters of life and love.

Have we become so hardened in our own hearts we cannot see, nor hear the call to empty ourselves that God might fill us daily? For the events of even one day can seed our thoughts and imaginations toward many ill fated judgments, better known to some as opinions.

It is that blessed time of year to refect our Blessed Fathers Earthly Journey

A time to repent, pray and give!   May I begin this journey openly with a prayer of penance toward my own inward to journey to the cross.  I will be posting my spiritual writings as I make this journey this year. For God has given me a vision of myself that is not all that it might be as a warning to dig deeper into my own pool of  faults before questioning those things that are to be....Many of you know, I have been working leisurely at questions to pose if we are living in the dawn of the Lords Day.  I had a personal vision of my spiritual self, So I take leave of this to look deeper into myself and what I have found so far disheartens. Never the less I continue with one mere reflection of my vision applied to me I found and I pray to my Lord for:

Embarking on my journey of lent my journey to the cross you may say the first call is to repentance.  A self examination of just how sin ridden I am encrusted with selfishness, eroded in self indulgence I am the epitome of denial.   Corrupting myself and all too often the Spirit of Christ within me, truly I say woe is me.  Carefully clothed in my Christianity using it to insulate my Spirit allowing me to appear and even act on the word of God while internalizing my own sins in a mountain of self justification.      Fully embracing the intimacy of Christ within me, while failing to express outwardly the beauty and grace within the gift of forgiveness.  Insolating and isolating myself in fear of reproach, reproach our loving Father has already covered the price of…How filled with foolishness I am!  I pray to my Jesus for these are sins I have no recourse within my own knowledge to overcome that he show mercy, his loving kindness that I not be swallowed up in my sin.  Repent is the cry in my heart yet I know not how to repent of such childish foolishness. Clothed carefully in my cloak of Christianity to ward off those of the world, and shielded gallantly with my sin to ward off those of the Lord; I in myself imposed isolation draw on the word in my whirlwind of hope that I might somehow please the Lord in my sinful state.  For thy sake dear Lord that those who see my hope in you are not dismayed through my sinful lack of faith and disobedience. I offer my selfishness onto you Lord to teach and guide me into overcoming these sins in and of your love for me For you have shown me Lord my spiritual continence embedded and encrusted with darkness without; with only glimmers of your light escaping helplessly trying to give to those in deeper entrenchments and holes of darkness while in a tomb of darkness myself.  Build in me Lord the will power to remove the crustiness, of my own selfishness impute in me the wisdom to walk out of the dungeon of self indulgence I have created in the light and truth within your Holy Spirit dear and faithful Jesus I pray in your mighty and exalted name a prayer of penance. 

My first step in my vigil to the cross in this year of our Lord 2011.