The following is something I wrote several years ago and I am posting it as a special request from a dear friend may God Bless and touch the hearts of those who read it with understanding. I normally do not post this type of writing. After starting my own journey toward finding out why my life was so messed up and starting to a form understanding of some of the mentioned conditions in life. I wrote this for a dear friend who was more or less in the same boat I was when I made these reflections in my life I shared with my friend and this is being posted that they might share it with others.
My next post for God's promises is almost ready and will be posted soon! And yes, I will try to eliminate these rabbit trails I go off in....However special requests should be treated as such....
The life you led to reach this point in your life you have just always been the victim Hun? I bet one of your favorite lines is “well if this had not happen or that had happen or if so and so had not done this; I was abused as a child, I am from a dysfunctional family, no one has ever given me a break, no one has ever really understood me! And the list can go on and on; so I am going to take that last one and focus on it, “No one had ever understood me, poor poor me!”
How could anyone of understood you when you have never even told yourself the truth…Never have not in a whole life time…Have you uttered the truth to yourself…That is that private part deep inside your heart that place you do not go! You avoid those Christians God has been so cruel to you, you will never strike a deal with him! And those you surround yourself with all their problems are their problems…they probably deserve the disaster they are living in! A real Mr. Tuff Stuff! You’re not remorseful or sorry for anything you have always done what you had to do to survive!
So now you are in a mind set….you are ready, convinced yourself you are going to reign in hell! Well I don’t think so! You are too easy! Satan could care less about you…He has won and never had to do anything but place that first lie in your heart and get you to believe it! Those influencing demons that have controlled your life probably do not even know your name! The influence of the world is so strong in your life you just went right by the devils program. You see the devil has a program the D’s I call it, and you are no more that a D to the devil one of the easy marks, he knows if you continue you will be there with him in the burning pit and he did not have to urge you on at all just hand you a program of his D’s and you will do it all yourself.
I am of firm believe that the D program is not only for you desiring to reign in Hell but many who seek Jesus also fail to be Christ like because one or more of D’s they have not uprooted from their lives; blocking them from the ability to walk in love…
First let us go through the D’s
The first D is deceit some of us first learn to lie at a very early age almost as if it comes naturally and when we lie we almost always first internalize that lie. Can you remember that first lie? When you did something you knew you were not supposed to do? First you probably told yourself you where never going to do that again! Lie? At the same time you may have also pronounced you “Did not to it”! It was so easy! Now trouble begins; you see as we grow, so do the lies; sadly we have discovered how easy it is to lie to ourselves! And those lies will grow and remain with you, unless rooted out.
Second D:deception: is planned lying. Remarkably a synonym of deception is imposter and this is where we begin to invent and develop this image of who we will become if not stopped. This person we are inventing with our lies. For we have found lying is easy! Our lies begin to take on an entity of their own within us! So we start planning our lies so they will fit in with our other lies; sadly at this point far too many even begin to believe the lies they tell their selves. For every lie we tell to others we internalize and tell ourselves a lie to justify the lie we told. Slowly and predictably as you create this alternate person that can pass off as ourselves; since you have never taken the time out to find out who you really are.
Third D detachment: yep, now you have to keep your distance from others so they won’t figure out you are not who you say you are at all! So no one can break through the facade you have created with your lies. And it is easier to believe yourselves the façade rather than experiencing the pain of digging into who you really are and what your purpose in life really is…So now here you are someone you invented through your lies half believing them yourself with no idea of who you really are. Fear and panic now setting in that someone might break your great façade…You must not allow anyone to close!
Fourth D defense: now you start your strategy to defend who you have invented…Your defense never letting anyone come to close…never tell anyone everything, never a soul mate for you…Only someone who will believe the image you have built for yourself. If anyone grows to close you will destroy the relationship completely and yes this includes family friends’ loves…
Fifth D deep depression: you’re alone! You must not let anyone to close. You are the person alone in the middle of a crowded room. The person you have made turns out not to be the person you wanted to be at all…Your depression is building now to anger…you don’t want to be alone…you are going to start over now (lying to yourself) You are going to draw someone else into your depressed state…then you will be better (more lies to yourself). There is no way you can keep up a relationship you are too busy keeping up with yourself. So all you are doing is drawing someone into your web of deception the world of lies you have built to live in. You have your pattern set up so well and in place just the way you think you want it! For relationship all you can do now is force another to live your lie; sadly there will be others in your same state that will! (Can anyone see the word abuser here?) Now to keep any relationship from getting to real we must add alcohol, no one wants to drink alone, drugs yes, no one wants to get high alone and of course sex! Careful here, it may feel good for a few times, however, even sex will become another place your façade will dominate it is way too close to intimacy for you to ever fully enjoy or be comfortable with…
Can you relate to any of this? Let me share something with you here most of the world is right with you to this point in the D’s every lie in their live is like a little grain of sand that has accumulated into rocks with a firmness that could out last the ages. Where is this accumulation? Your heart! You have gone beyond feeling to hardness in heart, a heart so cold as stone there is only one who can make a difference! YOU!
Well I will get back to you! Let’s finish the D’s!
Sixth D depravity: Webster says “a depraved condition; corruption; wickedness;…a depraved act….
So here you are! So high on alcohol, drugs, and sex you really don’t care who you are! Nor do you give any care to what you think about and dwell on (a real danger zone). Worst, you do not even care what other people think including friends and family! You just want to feel good at all costs! So you really blow out to the extremes your façade kick up those lies a notch or two…So no one finds out you have reduced yourselves to nothing more important than the next high! Now you have abused every substance and every person along the way by any means available at the time. A lot of people just stay stuck right here; until their master the devil escorts them out of this life to the pit of fire for their eternal judgment! Sadly they leave this world never knowing why they were here, so they never really know why they where here; or what their destiny could have been. Also sadly some do not stop here and go on extremely fixated on that next high….
Seventh D debauchery: I am leaving this to Webster: “extreme, unrestrained indulgence of one’s immoral appetites; sexual pleasures and other indulgences….”
You can outline that one yourself…. To me it simply means your own manner of self-indulgence no matter what the price! And that is total victory for the Devil!
I call these the Devil's D's
There is still time if you are reading this, I honestly believe in my heart this is a life time progression that many of us follow. It is possible to jump out of this cycle by excepting Jesus Christ into your heart and giving up that person you created and allow him to create a new you. There will still be some paying the price of the life style you chose to indulge in, but Christ makes your road one of understanding if you ask, He answers. It is at that point you meet the true person you are and learn to stand and walk upright for you are on the journey to your true destiny.
My next post for God's promises is almost ready and will be posted soon! And yes, I will try to eliminate these rabbit trails I go off in....However special requests should be treated as such....
The life you led to reach this point in your life you have just always been the victim Hun? I bet one of your favorite lines is “well if this had not happen or that had happen or if so and so had not done this; I was abused as a child, I am from a dysfunctional family, no one has ever given me a break, no one has ever really understood me! And the list can go on and on; so I am going to take that last one and focus on it, “No one had ever understood me, poor poor me!”
How could anyone of understood you when you have never even told yourself the truth…Never have not in a whole life time…Have you uttered the truth to yourself…That is that private part deep inside your heart that place you do not go! You avoid those Christians God has been so cruel to you, you will never strike a deal with him! And those you surround yourself with all their problems are their problems…they probably deserve the disaster they are living in! A real Mr. Tuff Stuff! You’re not remorseful or sorry for anything you have always done what you had to do to survive!
So now you are in a mind set….you are ready, convinced yourself you are going to reign in hell! Well I don’t think so! You are too easy! Satan could care less about you…He has won and never had to do anything but place that first lie in your heart and get you to believe it! Those influencing demons that have controlled your life probably do not even know your name! The influence of the world is so strong in your life you just went right by the devils program. You see the devil has a program the D’s I call it, and you are no more that a D to the devil one of the easy marks, he knows if you continue you will be there with him in the burning pit and he did not have to urge you on at all just hand you a program of his D’s and you will do it all yourself.
I am of firm believe that the D program is not only for you desiring to reign in Hell but many who seek Jesus also fail to be Christ like because one or more of D’s they have not uprooted from their lives; blocking them from the ability to walk in love…
First let us go through the D’s
The first D is deceit some of us first learn to lie at a very early age almost as if it comes naturally and when we lie we almost always first internalize that lie. Can you remember that first lie? When you did something you knew you were not supposed to do? First you probably told yourself you where never going to do that again! Lie? At the same time you may have also pronounced you “Did not to it”! It was so easy! Now trouble begins; you see as we grow, so do the lies; sadly we have discovered how easy it is to lie to ourselves! And those lies will grow and remain with you, unless rooted out.
Second D:deception: is planned lying. Remarkably a synonym of deception is imposter and this is where we begin to invent and develop this image of who we will become if not stopped. This person we are inventing with our lies. For we have found lying is easy! Our lies begin to take on an entity of their own within us! So we start planning our lies so they will fit in with our other lies; sadly at this point far too many even begin to believe the lies they tell their selves. For every lie we tell to others we internalize and tell ourselves a lie to justify the lie we told. Slowly and predictably as you create this alternate person that can pass off as ourselves; since you have never taken the time out to find out who you really are.
Third D detachment: yep, now you have to keep your distance from others so they won’t figure out you are not who you say you are at all! So no one can break through the facade you have created with your lies. And it is easier to believe yourselves the façade rather than experiencing the pain of digging into who you really are and what your purpose in life really is…So now here you are someone you invented through your lies half believing them yourself with no idea of who you really are. Fear and panic now setting in that someone might break your great façade…You must not allow anyone to close!
Fourth D defense: now you start your strategy to defend who you have invented…Your defense never letting anyone come to close…never tell anyone everything, never a soul mate for you…Only someone who will believe the image you have built for yourself. If anyone grows to close you will destroy the relationship completely and yes this includes family friends’ loves…
Fifth D deep depression: you’re alone! You must not let anyone to close. You are the person alone in the middle of a crowded room. The person you have made turns out not to be the person you wanted to be at all…Your depression is building now to anger…you don’t want to be alone…you are going to start over now (lying to yourself) You are going to draw someone else into your depressed state…then you will be better (more lies to yourself). There is no way you can keep up a relationship you are too busy keeping up with yourself. So all you are doing is drawing someone into your web of deception the world of lies you have built to live in. You have your pattern set up so well and in place just the way you think you want it! For relationship all you can do now is force another to live your lie; sadly there will be others in your same state that will! (Can anyone see the word abuser here?) Now to keep any relationship from getting to real we must add alcohol, no one wants to drink alone, drugs yes, no one wants to get high alone and of course sex! Careful here, it may feel good for a few times, however, even sex will become another place your façade will dominate it is way too close to intimacy for you to ever fully enjoy or be comfortable with…
Can you relate to any of this? Let me share something with you here most of the world is right with you to this point in the D’s every lie in their live is like a little grain of sand that has accumulated into rocks with a firmness that could out last the ages. Where is this accumulation? Your heart! You have gone beyond feeling to hardness in heart, a heart so cold as stone there is only one who can make a difference! YOU!
Well I will get back to you! Let’s finish the D’s!
Sixth D depravity: Webster says “a depraved condition; corruption; wickedness;…a depraved act….
So here you are! So high on alcohol, drugs, and sex you really don’t care who you are! Nor do you give any care to what you think about and dwell on (a real danger zone). Worst, you do not even care what other people think including friends and family! You just want to feel good at all costs! So you really blow out to the extremes your façade kick up those lies a notch or two…So no one finds out you have reduced yourselves to nothing more important than the next high! Now you have abused every substance and every person along the way by any means available at the time. A lot of people just stay stuck right here; until their master the devil escorts them out of this life to the pit of fire for their eternal judgment! Sadly they leave this world never knowing why they were here, so they never really know why they where here; or what their destiny could have been. Also sadly some do not stop here and go on extremely fixated on that next high….
Seventh D debauchery: I am leaving this to Webster: “extreme, unrestrained indulgence of one’s immoral appetites; sexual pleasures and other indulgences….”
You can outline that one yourself…. To me it simply means your own manner of self-indulgence no matter what the price! And that is total victory for the Devil!
I call these the Devil's D's
There is still time if you are reading this, I honestly believe in my heart this is a life time progression that many of us follow. It is possible to jump out of this cycle by excepting Jesus Christ into your heart and giving up that person you created and allow him to create a new you. There will still be some paying the price of the life style you chose to indulge in, but Christ makes your road one of understanding if you ask, He answers. It is at that point you meet the true person you are and learn to stand and walk upright for you are on the journey to your true destiny.
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